It has just now finally sunk in and I’m crying. They were so perfectly amazing.

It was extremely good. It’s about a girl who joins a social site and immediately gets bullied by people on it. She is a normal and nice girl but it happens anyway. The bullying gets worse, and she already had troubles going on at home, so she decides she wanted to end her life. This doesn’t happen, but she ends up going to a support group where they talk about being bullied for all sorts of reason and it’s really good to watch if you have been in this type of situation, or have been bullied at all. Even if you have thought about ending your life, you should watch it. (I watched it on here http://www.solarmovie.so/link/play/857647/ )
As I watched it, I related to things a lot and it’s helped me look at things differently. I feel like I should share it with you because I know there are mean people out there who only want to put others down and I know there are people on the receiving end of it that could benefit from seeing this movie. 
Things can seem impossible at times and pointless. You think living isn’t worth this much pain and torment, but it does get better. If you’re getting bullied at school- those people won’t be in your life forever and the only reason they are putting you down is because they are unhappy with themselves and feel hurting others will displace their hurt and make themselves feel better. Those people are cowards, they are the ones who need help. You are a better person than they are and that’s why they target you. Don’t let these few people ruin who you are.
If you’re having troubles at home- it will pass. If you’re parents are fighting, chances are, they will separate. My parents fought all my childhood. It was really bad and I never knew why my mum stayed. I thought I would have to live in this forever but one day it was just too much and they finally separated. I was 11 when they did. If they hadn’t, I would have left. If not then, eventually. As soon as I was old enough too. If it’s bad at home, just stick it out ‘til you can leave. Get a job, save your money, look for a room mate whether it be a friend or a stranger. You don’t have to be in that environment your entire life and there’s no point ending your life because all you will have known is that. You’d deprive yourself of everything you could have been. Stick it out and it will get better, you will be a stronger person I promise you. 
If you are being cyber-bullied, block the person! You don’t have to delete your page/blog/etc. All you have to do is block the connection they have to you. I’ve been cyber-bullied before and at that time I was an angry, insecure person. I wanted them to send me a message, to say something, just so I could lash out and so they could confirm everything I thought about myself. I wanted to see the hate just so I could justify what I’d do to myself. I could have easily blocked them and it would be fine but I wanted it and I know for a fact some of you want it too but what is that doing to you? It’s tearing you down. You are preventing yourself from growing as a person. They are pulling you under and you’re allowing it. Don’t let them. Sure you have flaws but so does everyone. You’re overweight? You can change that. You made a mistake by hooking up with that guy that one time? It’s was a mistake. You’ll learn from it. These people bully you because they are just as insecure as you are. They have troubles at home too, they have made mistakes too, the only difference is, they are taking it out on you to make you feel as bad as they do. Feel bad for these people because they are the weak ones, not you. If you rise above these people, if you block them, ignore them, if you stick it out, you will always be the better person. When it feels like everything is falling apart and the whole world is against you that is when you have to try harder. The universe is testing you and you have to show it that you can survive this, that you know your life is worth living because it is. Not everyone get’s the change to live out their lives, to grow up, to have a family and see them grow. They want to, but they can’t. You can have that chance, don’t take it for granted. 
You are an amazing, beautiful person. Don’t think otherwise. Give the world the chance to see just how amazing you are too. Never feel like death is an option. If you do, you’re looking at the wrong end of the stick. If you ever feel like you can’t do this, you can’t find a reason to live any more, go and get help. So many people don’t, and if they had, they could still be here.
I love you, I will be here if you need someone to talk to. You have your parents, friends, the school counsellor. There are doctors, psychiatrist- so many people are there to help you but they won’t know what’s wrong until you tell them. Please speak up. Sometimes just talking to someone can make you feel better because you aren’t holding in all this hurt and having to deal with it on your own.

We’re all damaged in our own way. Nobody’s perfect. I think we are all somewhat screwy, every single one of us.
            -Johnny Depp. 

Went to a mates birthday party the night before last. It was great. It felt just like old times. It was the same people doing the same thing but I hadn’t done it in so long and I missed it so much. I missed them a lot. 
Later in the night, some of us went out the front to chill then all of a sudden one of my mates had fireworks and we were setting them off on the other side of the road. I’ve never done that before. It was perfect though, it made the night different and special. They looked brilliant. 
We were missing people though. Some couldn’t make it on such late notice, and others couldn’t make it because they are no longer with us. I still felt like they were with us though. Every time I am with these people, I will remember all the parties, the people I’ve met, the people I have become so close to now, and the people I have lost. These people will always be my true friend, they will always be family and they will always be in my heart.

I’m too excited, I cannot wait!

I think that I really need to start drawing again, properly. I was so good at it for a while there. 
I guess I’ll just add it to my list of things to do when I get my act together.